The emotional roller coaster that is life

Last Thursday was my birthday, and what a great birthday it was! I felt so loved and special from my friends and family, thank you all for your congratulations and best wishes. Erin and Roshaney surprised with a princess cake, they had slaved over it for three days and it was absolutely yummy. Ben was visiting from Boston so the two of us first spent the day in San Jose checking out the sights. After champagne and cake at our place we went to Lubnan, a Lebanese place in San Jose, for dinner. "We" were the aforementioned along with Robert who came down from Monteverde and Shira. After dinner, a great table-spread of mezes, we were planning on going to Rapsodia, a lounge nearby, for some dancing, but it was completely dead and closing up. So instead we hopped a cab and went to El Pueblo, a labyrinth of bars and night clubs we had heard of but never visited. Sort of like Ios town. We ended the night with an impromptu dance party in our home. The day after me and Ben went to Jacó beach for two days, and by the time we came back Ren had joined from Argentina and the fun continued. Ben left yesterday, Rob today, and now we're back to more normal.

So today is your regular work day. I keep browsing for jobs and applying left and right. Today I found out I didn't make the cut for the EU administration program. I scored 35 out of 40 on their admissions test, and you needed 36 or better to have a chance. So that was a three-month process that ended in defeat, and also, I'm sad to say, disbelief. Because if I'm not even smart enough to work as an entry-level administrator in Brussels, how can I expect to be a top-tier Major Trend Analyst? And I'm not asking that to earn your pity, I really want to know.